It's a new year, Lord, and I'm not sure it matters all that much to you as you are so high above and outside of time, and yet I know that you at least consider it, as your children live in it ~ in time. I haven't really felt you leading me to make resolutions or even goals for this new year, but I do desire transformation and renewed strength for the ongoing, the not-yet-accomplished journey of being a mom ~ and a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom at that. Also, I pray that you will transform me and strengthen me to be a more loving, affectionate, and understanding wife, which is an even more ongoing, never-ending journey! I read these verses today, Lord, and they really seemed to apply to these desires and my current struggles within my current callings:
"The wise woman builds her house, but the foolish tears it down with her own hands."
I know it is within me to "tear down" my house with negativity, discouragement, discontentedness, and a demanding of my own way. Also, refusing to trust you and a refusal to see all of your grace and mercy around me leads to "tearing my house down." But I also refuse to see how I've built my house up and loved and served my family well. And so, give me perspective and encouragement in this as well and yes ~ strength, passion, vision, and endurance to continue in this "housebuilding" area.
The other two prayers involve my tongue and my heart. I'll share those soon...